I’ve been on my new diet now for five months. I have gone from 330 pounds to 277 in that time frame. I still suffer from reactions and hunger, tiredness and overall crankiness, but overall I feel better than I have in a long time.
My jeans are loose but still fit.
I am hungry often but nothing looks or tastes all that good. I tend to push eating out of my head and often go all day without eating more than an apple or some corn chips with a Naked juice.
My end goal was not to lose weight, but to feel better – less bloated, less painful, and less nauseous.
The moment I stray from my diet, I suffer from all three.
I drink a lot of peppermint tea.
I am tired a lot. My pain levels are higher than I would like but diet has little to no effect on that as long as I stay away from Nightshades.
When I eat regularly, I stop losing weight almost immediately. I gained 2 pounds when I had Lactaid ice cream or snacks like sweet potato chips. Cheating is apparently not allowed. I also bloated up and felt generally icky the next day – signs that I should not veer off track. sigh.
I have been struggling with depression and anxiety in high levels for the last few weeks. I have had a headache during that time above and beyond my daily level. I am having a hard time dealing with the constant pain and bleh that goes with all of this, and I miss my comfort foods.
I don’t miss them enough to go back, however. It just sucks.
I stopped seeing my shrink around the time of my last entry, which likely isn’t a coincidence. My depression, anxiety, and mood swings returned almost immediately but my insurance will not cover it and there’s nothing to be done about that. I will not put my family into debt or take away food from the budget so that I can find some stranger to talk to about crap in my life that will never change.
Summer is upon us and I will be spending a great deal of time and energy getting my house clean, fixed up, and in better shape than it is currently. My children and I will be doing that adventure together. I am putting my weekend job on hold for now so I can focus on the weekends on all the things that need to be done.
I plan to write here more as I progress, and show pictures and write about all the things happening – good and bad. I look forward to that.
My blood pressure is normal.
My cholesterol is fine.
My blood sugar levels have been constant and within acceptable ranges.
I need a mammogram and other tests for my age.
Oh, and I turn 50 tomorrow. Meh.
More later as I find it… stay tuned.